you all remember how much kenny hated the indians??
well I hate the purveyers of the eggnog latte just as much. and the idiots who go through drive and scream at me... or the ones who order with their windows up and wonder why I cant hear them... and then get annoyed with me...
maybe I'll make all drinks decaf...
no...
too noticible...
I'll figure something out. I like the job, its the retarded customers I cant stand.

heres a brief update on me: I moved. Im broke. My car is alive. I have a new phone but you'll have to leave me a comment if you want the number. and you'll ahve to be super cool to know where I live now...
my hottub broke. It was tragic. I wanted to cry but I just went to bed.
there are always people djing too... like till all hours...
alas my sleep is limited.
and thusly so is my sanity.
but I have a shane.
-13.4% more sanity.
+78% love-induced hazes
it all evens out right.... RIGHT????
that is all

i feel utterly inadequate.
right now all i want to do is go home and drink until i cnat remember what feelings are. unfortunately i have no way to sdo that so i'll sit here and play nice girl. w00t.

they dont give you a handbook when you embark into love.
and its a scary thing... really scary...
there needs to be a handbook.

sometimes you hate them... they dont call. they forget things. they bail on plans.
ansd still yet: they call you when they have a hunch youre feeling down. they lay with you against their own better judgement so you'll fall asleep...
and in one instant... in the glow of candles the whispered words of a mid-ninties song from a band no one even knows anymore, shared between two people convinced they are the last to know the lyrics, you realise something: this is what love really is. this is how it feels how it tastes how it smells...
and Im never giving it up...
i'll get through cheating. I'll overlook a silly thing like distance or drunken rants....
this is real.
and its not getting away without a fight.

Better Days


And you ask me what I want this year
And I try to make this kind and clear
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
Cuz I don't need boxes wrapped in strings
And desire and love and empty things
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again

And it's someplace simple where we could live
And something only you can give
And thats faith and trust and peace while we're alive
And the one poor child that saved this world
And there's 10 million more who probably could
If we all just stopped and said a prayer for them

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again

I wish everyone was loved tonight
And somehow stop this fight
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again

this is what im feelin right now. I love this song... finally... someone gets it right.
woot.

let me start from the beginning.... I'll abbreviate what needs to be =)
Friday night: crew goes to corn maze... plays with lightsabers, shane scares the beejeebus out of people, come home late in good spirits =).
Saturday: heather yo gets the stomach flu so adam and I run around trying to still fix my poor dilapidated car and get halloween stuff to make me all piratey...
Saturday night: We roll up to chrissy's sick ass party. Im a pirate, julie is the gynaurologist and shane the cat in the hat. OTher pirates appear... we take pictures... drink jungle juice. shane ends up the bar tender. I get sick and sit on the couch for a bit and meet cool people. Once I feel better pirate jon and I pillage lawn ornaments... the lawn elephant was too heavy to capture with us... it made us sad... hicks want to fight shane. Dave hold down the fort and keeps shane from beating someone. there is a lot of cheap vodka and rum involved. Dave Katosic, dressed as jesus grabbs my butt... you KNOW its been a good party when you wake up next to jesus and the man you love lol...
SUNDAY WAS A BLUR OF STARBUCKS AND RECOVERING.... not to mention jello shots and cape cods on the lawn ans shanes maja and sister drive past.
MOnday I changed costume to a schoolgirl... it was lame until the party crew came. jeb climbed the phone pole... lots of drinking and other shizle... I was spun to sleep...
TUESDAY shane woke up on the floor... jeb was passed out in the living room... somehow I swaggered, 1/2 drunk to my drive with my alcohol garbage... shanes mom laughed at me...
all in all it was a good run.. i have a busted window, a relationship I need to think about and figure out, a boy that I love, a sick ass pair of knee highs and a beer bottle on my roof... i rule.

after all is said and done we really were meant to be...
and i odnt understand why he loves me either... he could do better. easily.
but he does. im happy about that. i love him unconditionally... hope it goes both ways.
w00t.
im sexy in a corset lol.
that is all